Life outside of the office

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I wept while catching this little boy sitting outside of my office. He begged me to buy his cakes (banh cam). I did not have money with me and so couldn't do anything. It's not about me feeling guilty or fortunate, as I had neither of those feelings. I felt mad at myself, for not working on education for these children and for not making direct impacts in their lives. Excuses keep coming up. But I had a short life expectancy for myself, what I do in my work is not as important to me as what the result of my work will do to help me and others. As I swirl through life in my current and future chapters, when I have enough money to live independently, I will do much more. For now, sorry little Tu, I have no recommendations for you for what to do.

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It rained really hard. I asked:
- Can you really have business with this weather?
- Yeah, only the taxis can.
And he left in the rain.
(my conversation with my xe om's driver)
Oh! I just realized how much of a risk-taker I am for leaving my life to different strangers every day (i.e. taking xe om) but oh well, I guess you can say the same for taxis or any other public transport.

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I teach English to my little nephew these days. He is smart and the joy I see in his eyes when he learns and speaks new words makes me so happy.

These days, I sometimes sleep on the same bed with my sister and my nephew (yah, 3 people). Sometimes I get so tired after work and just pass out on the bed when I enter my sister's room. The 2 poor young people don't even wanna wake me up and choose to sleep on the floor instead. I kiss them good night everyday. They are so dearingly loving of me. As I'm writing this blog, my nephew bringing me banh trung thu told me: you must eat so you won't become under/mal-nultritious :D cause you work so hard and don't eat. awww... (no worries, I eat and sleep a lot!)